We each have a song that is our own and that needs protecting from the clang and falseness of the world. When the noise is too loud we cannot hear our own melody, our violins, triangle, bassoon, our cello providing the soul-filled bass.
Many of us idealize the pastoral life, the convent, the walk in the woods – places where we can not only hear ourselves think but can hear our own song, consciously or not. We are refreshed and returned to our inner harmonies through the quiet of meditation.
Some people’s songs are strong enough to hold their own against the roar of the crowd. They even change the melody of the collective. We trust these songs. They inspire us, enlighten and lift us up to actions. They reveal underlying truths of inclusion and caring.
Yet, other people have songs that are also powerful but call us towards prejudice, harm, and power. I don’t believe these are true inner harmonies. They are sirens that cajole us to fear and lure us to greed and exclusion.
Discerning the difference between the song and the siren is harder for some of us than others. It is, perhaps for all of us, the most important struggle of our lives. It determines how we experience life and what we create. It forms our morals, ethics, and beliefs.
Do we recognize truth from fantasy? Generosity from greed? Joy from self-aggrandizement? Love from power?
My own song is delicate these days, a thing of lutes, flutes, and countertenors – a circumstance of physical and emotional issues.
I rest, see new doctors, take new medicines, and contemplate limits. If I listen, I hear my melody again.
Such times make us re-evaluate our history, our friends, our priorities, how kind we are, what we expect of life, if we are doing what we are meant to do, if we care and love adequately.
They make us examine our long-held beliefs, whether of God or personal strength, and prompt us to divest of anything that may be false. I have a ferocious need to strip down to what is, to shed what I may wish, hope, and fantasize. I want to touch rock.
In the process of losing much, some long-held beliefs remain. These include:
Black loam is the stuff of life. Ask any crow diving for worms behind a plow.
Betrayal and abandonment may on rare occasion be necessary, but they are always sins. Whether or not there is a God.
Education should be free as a right of all humans. Brains require the light of knowledge.
People with perfect color-pitch exist just as do people with perfect tone-pitch. And these people suffer when colors clash as much as people with perfect tone-pitch suffer when something is off-key.
Parking angels exist. But you must believe and must say “thank you.”
No god exists that cares if you believe in Him, Her, It, The. It only matters to you.
Nothing can be explained. Though some things can be known.
Forgiveness requires that you ask less of others than you do of yourself. Annoying, but there it is. No choice.
Everything is energy. From thoughts to stones.
People who died a couple generations back are pretty much forgotten. You are fodder to the future.
There is value in doing good even though you will be forgotten. Love really is the way, the truth, and the light.
Each person is many people. Talk to other’s best selves.
Universal love has great power. But crazy fundamentalists often operate on a different frequency.
Prejudice relies on being willing to lie to yourself. As do a lot of lesser things.
Life is a larger miracle than any God we imagine.
That’s my bottom line: life is a larger miracle than any God we imagine.
Sensing there is a miracle somewhere, we construct an exterior God that watches from someplace else – a God small enough to contain inside our imaginations when the truth is that existence itself is the miracle. This is it. This is the rock that lives.
I want to relish what is right here right now, no fantasies, no compromises, beyond comprehension. I celebrate that perhaps the most I can know of what is beyond me is the song inside me. Ah, yes, where does that come from?